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\"\"

Balls,
Yangoon\/Myannmar, November 2015<\/p><\/div>\n

January<\/h1>\n

January is this shitty month of dying.
\nIt\u2019s like people hold on through December, see one last christmas
\nand then just loose it and call it a life.
\nJan Wigger died, whose articles in Rolling Stone I remembered
\nand I liked the music he liked and he was
\nyounger than me, and this is what happens when
\nyou reach a certain age, people just die who are
\nyounger than you, which is kind of sad,
\nbut then again: Is dying not always a sad thing, no matter if you\u2019re
\nyoung and die without having done so much with your life
\nor being old and die and asking yourself if you have done so much with your life,
\nso is it not always this sad thing?<\/p>\n

And Marlena Shaw died, and I pulled out on of her records and listened to her voice
\nfor the very first time in a long time and that was not a sad thing.
\nAnd Mary Weiss of the the Shangri Las died, who became famous when she was
\nfifteen
\nand afterwards no one heard anything about her life and for a very brief moment I
\nwanted to read what she had done with the rest of her lie but then I
\nforgot.<\/p>\n

And Frank Farian died and I listened to some Boney M. and I
\nremembered
\nthat weird guy who was just dancing and not singing and I
\nhad seen Boney M. on television, when there was still Television and everybody
\nwatched just about pretty much the same stuff and next day we would talk about
\nthat<\/p>\n

And now we talk about the series we streamed but no one watched it,
\nlike I
\nwatched the third season of True Detective yesterday, which was also about
\nlives
\npassing
\nand you only have this one story, that makes up your life, not like on TV where
\nyou
\nsee thousands of stories and there is always another one you can try out and see,
\nif this a story that could make up your life.<\/p>\n

And
\nFrank Z. from Abw\u00e4rts died. Which I
\nnever listened to when they became sort-of-famous in the 8oies, because I
\ndid not listen to Punk, I was not angry when I was young, I
\nwas just sad most of the time, so I
\nListened to Joy Division and Bauhaus and I
\nmissed out on all this Punk-stuff and being young and angry, it is only today
\nthat I started listening to Punk, as I
\nam old and angry now, so now I get where the music is coming from.<\/p>\n

And Melanie died. you know, guitar picking and that soft voice in Woodstock, for
\nsome things
\nI am too young to have actually been around, when they where a thing,
\nbut for a lot of things I have been around, when they were a thing.
\nAnd our neighbour is dying for some time now. He
\nis lying in his flat underneath ours and waiting for death to come.
\nHe is very religious, so the few things he still does is going to church once or twice a week
\nand when he comes back I hear his probing, slow, heavy footsteps on the stairs,
\nit is like death itself is coming up the stairs
\nand then he slams the door shut behind him and then for days on
\nyou hear hardly anything coming from downstairs.<\/p>\n

And my mother died in January a couple years ago.
\nIt was her birthday. She somehow held on to this day,
\nbut I don\u2019t know if she was in a mood of celebrating,
\nshe drank too much and took some sleeping pills and then
\nher heart
\njust gave in
\nand that was that, came to the world on a day
\nand left it on the same day, one of these miserable wet dark cold days of<\/p>\n

January.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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